I had started this blog with the intention of learning about photography. It had always been an interest of mine and I thought blogging about it would help me stay honest with this new hobby. Plus it was a great way to track my progress.
At first, my voice was that of a novice (which I am), taking slow, wary steps into the world of photography, seeing it through a fresh lens (pardon the pun), hoping to glean some sort of insight from it all and perhaps -- in some miraculous way -- change my life. It's still the case, but ever since my dad passed four months ago, I've put the blog and photography on the back burner. I had zero desire to continue. How could I when my family needs me? Family, and work -- Those were my two main points of focus.
Even now I feel guilty thinking about my passions. How could I even begin to imagine my future when my present is still crumbling? But in my attempt to "be there" for my family, I've lost sight of my path, and I don't know what my motivation is anymore -- with this blog, and everything else.
Maybe that's what this blog is going to become. Not necessarily my journey with photography, but my journey. Period. My search for...whatever it is I'm looking for. And I hope, for the few that read this, you'll stick with me along the way.
I saw an affirmation on Pinterest the other day: Be fearless in pursuit of what sets your soul on fire.
I want to know what that is for me. I want to be inspired. That's my new goal.
At first, my voice was that of a novice (which I am), taking slow, wary steps into the world of photography, seeing it through a fresh lens (pardon the pun), hoping to glean some sort of insight from it all and perhaps -- in some miraculous way -- change my life. It's still the case, but ever since my dad passed four months ago, I've put the blog and photography on the back burner. I had zero desire to continue. How could I when my family needs me? Family, and work -- Those were my two main points of focus.
Even now I feel guilty thinking about my passions. How could I even begin to imagine my future when my present is still crumbling? But in my attempt to "be there" for my family, I've lost sight of my path, and I don't know what my motivation is anymore -- with this blog, and everything else.
Maybe that's what this blog is going to become. Not necessarily my journey with photography, but my journey. Period. My search for...whatever it is I'm looking for. And I hope, for the few that read this, you'll stick with me along the way.
I saw an affirmation on Pinterest the other day: Be fearless in pursuit of what sets your soul on fire.
I want to know what that is for me. I want to be inspired. That's my new goal.
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